我怕。。。。

之前老公叫我别再担心。。。
你和她。。。。筱燕。。。。
但。。。。我还是一样担心。。。
我还是一样怕。。。。
我第一次有将的感觉。。。。
我真的很怕。。。。
老公。。。。
你来kl读书我当然开心。。。。
但。。。她好像也是会来kl读书。。。
我每天看她的facebook...
我开你的facebook...看msg...
但。。。好像你有把几个facebook的信息delete了。。。
还是我想太多了。。。
还是你特地的。。。
老公。。。我爱你。。。。
我不想离开你。。。

i hate doctor...y??

I damn hate doctor!!
i know when people sick people go see doctor~
i know i cant hate doctor because doctor help cure people who sick
but.....
when i...like around 15 years old(form 3)
the 1st day of school...i fainted....
then later form 4....
when i wake up from bed and wanna going to school
i felt fine~no sick~
but after the perhimpunan,we all went back to class...and my classroom at 4th floor....*so tired
when i went back to the classroom....
i just drop it...not on the floor...
i just simple sit a place...(friend seat)
my head very dizzy...warm....cant feel my body...
my friend help me cal my father and fetch me...
(because at that time i got bring h/p^^)
so i went to see a doctor....
after 3 days....i till sick...my head till warm....my body cold....
but i did eat the medicine...
and then my mom bring me to go see another doctor...
i told the doctor...sometime i cant see....sometime i can see but the color are all brown...
the doctor said my fever is too high....make my eyes like tat(热到眼睛)
the doctor said if the fever till haven reduce i need to go to hospital...
but the fever got reduce la~and i feeling better...
but my taste bud taste bitter!!
i eat many sweet also no use!!
cant taste my food~
i hate to see doctor because of the medicine....
because i don wan the bitter taste at my taste bud....
tat the worst sick i ever got....
like H1N1...except no body ace....
only cant feel my body ady....><""

fat fat ady....

friday....dinner.....damn full....
my aunt cook mee....somemore put many mee.....
and i drink many money.....
then i go ballet.....
then...when i home....
my father brought a cake....and it a big cake....not like wedding cake la
normal normal la~
somemore is a chocalate with cheese cream....
wah!!
so nice oo~
but...but....
very fat fat...
at that time i damn full....cant walk anymore.....
my tummy....like got 3 month baby inside me....
><"

today working

Today got 1 group customer damn fucking annoying lol!!
think i dunno malay ar!!think i dunno what u fucking talk about ar!!
think that we waitress/waiter are dumb ar!
fuck!!
pour tea for u~then saying some bullshit about me~!
my malay suck~but i can understand u saying wat lol!
somemore make fun of me!
somemore say me dunno how to order!
in these 3 days i order perfectly fine!!
is u that dunno how to say properly!
fuck!
useless!!!
people already feeling very down ady!!somemore make me angry!!
next time i see u i pour the hot tea at ur face!!
make fun of me!!think the waiter/waitress are what?
HMP!!

feeling down

yesterday and today....not so happy...
mayb because jacky din't sms me....
yesterday he got sms me....not many....
this morning he din't morning cal me....
mayb he busy??jacky....
i miss u la~
u off ur phone....i cal ur both nbr....also off....
u told me ur house have a problem??mayb tat y u off ur phone?
but....
i really wory about u leh....
today the whole day i not feeling well....
not so active anymore...
jacky where r u??
i really miss u....

happy

Mayb not everytime i happy.....
not everyday i happy
because some day i sad....
and sometime i dint tell Jacky....that i sad.....
because scare him worry....
but....mayb later will tell him de....or i tel him at blog~
because i know he will see his honey blog~^^
mayb....this relationship wont like me and mr.brainless....
because when i was together with mr.brainless....i told him everything.....
and i regret...that i told him everything.....
even thought the past time he help me alot ....
my problem....i keep counting on him....
now i know why...before is hard 4 me to break up wit him...
but now....without him...i till can live myself wit my problem~
but...........
now i have jacky~
even thought i dint tell all my problem to jacky....
that y i blog my problem....so mayb if he free...he can see...
even thought i not happy everyday
but i happy when i just thinking about jacky~when i daydreaming about jacky~^^
when i together with jacky~
the day i meet him~
i already the most happy girl in the world^^

haiz.....

Today....haiz....
ntg to say....
i haven finish my work....then go home le...
haiz...
y???
because of my mom....i not blaming my mom la(a little...)
y i blaming her(a little)
because afternoon i told her ady~
today i do bar....so i must go home late...because i need to wash all the glass and cup....
i know i 11o'clock off le~
no need come and fetch at 11o'clock mah....
i got so many thing to wash and do....
haiz....i finish my thing in 15 minute....
somemore the restaurant till got customer....
also need to wash their drink....or mayb they got last minute order....(desert)
i'm de bar.....do drinks and desert....
today is my 2nd day of my bar duty....and my hand right now damn painful and dry....
y painful??
because i injury my finger when i was serve customer hot towel....
no careful touch the side....because the side is damn hot...
when i peel of the orange....my hand so painful...........
like my hand is burning.....