Not a perfect girl

I may not be a perfect girl friend
That you looking for
But I try to be.....


I may not have a good temper, and you also
But I can wait it to be over
I may not always happy with my life
Because life isn't all about happy


The happy time, is to be with my lover
The most happy time I ever have 
And I hope he will always be beside me


I never told him
I have a terrible case with the word "alone"
I know I suppose to forgot the unhappy thing in the past
Is difficult for me


During my whole life
I been alone in the room, outside , school
I may have friends in school , best friends
But different classes.
In high school, I mostly talk less but read novel alot
I keep telling people "I use to be alone"
But is a lie, I afraid to be alone
I'm scare.


I never regret to be together with my hubby
Because he give me a life I ever dream of
I'm ready to face anything, except alone


But.....when we argument.....
He left me....alone.... 
Even thought how many times I cry out for him
He never call back
I worry...


Hubby, Do you worry??
Do you think about me now?
Do missed me??
Do you dream about me??


Or I just annoying girl who love you
But you didn't care


I really sad
I really worry
But I glad to hear from your mom that safety return
But you still didn't answer any of my calls
May be you didn't want to listen my voice